I’ve been putting off this blog almost two weeks now. After working 16 days in a row, committing my thoughts to… keyboard, was the last thing I wanted to do.
And then I started watching DeathNote. I’ve stopped long enough to pen this blog, which was going to be on writer’s block, and expand on why procrastination is not good. Maybe we’ll all learn something.
It stared with White Rabbit by Egypt Central. I couldn’t get it out of my head, so I turned to YouTube. Enter DeathNote vid to White Rabbit, and I find myself compelled to watch the series.
Now, I’m not big on anime. I can count a handful I had a vested interest in. But what the hell?
And then I didn’t stop watching it. In fact, in a three-day time period, I’ve watched almost the entire series. It was subtitled, so I felt I needed to devote my full attention. Thus, I’ve really made no progress on any of my projects.
Procrastination is a vicious cycle. You don’t want to work, so you don’t, and then you’re even less inclined, so you don’t… It’s madness, really.
So I confess: still no fourth character sketch, no real novel-progress. I have been keeping up with my little vignettes for Deadbeat! That’s gotta be worth something, right?
Honestly, I’ve been writer’s blocked. I’ve worked the last 16 days straights, my student loan bills made an appearance, I broke my face (really, just a tooth cap, but it still sucked), and I’ve been under a lot of pressure. Stress is not a writer’s friend. At all.
And as usual when stressed, I question my entire life plan and design and once more weigh my worthiness. I think this time I came out on top. No one said any of this chasing what you want/relentlessly stalking your dream stuff would be easy.
For now, I have tea. Lots and lots of tea.
You can check out Chapter 1 of The Girl in Question and ALL of the continually updated Deadbeat over at Figment.com.